Serenity
How can one be calm & have peace of mind when the whole world is telling you that you should be ashamed of yourself? For years, I've always assumed that I must be some FAILURE because I wasn't able to conceive. I mean, 10 years now. Going on 11 and we're right where we were when we started, How do we find peace in barrenness? That's a question we often ask ourselves. I recently committed to a healing fast. To commit 40 days to focus on praying around and even through the circumstances that I've bottled up. PCOS, Infertility, Motherhood, Family, etc. There are so many things my heart desires. But God has just been absolutely awesome in revealing His greatness to me since day 1. He's teaching me to see the beauty in the barrenness. Questions I ask myself now are much more convicting. Such as: why do I want children? Is my husband and I not already a family? How can I bring a child into this family, if we're not even acting like one alr