Beauty of Barrenness

Image by Indulgy.com Some days are easier than others. God has given me peace in these sufferings. But I'm still human. Everyday as I make the choice to dwell on His promises instead of my situation, He gives me more & more strength. With every passing day, it became a little easier to talk about infertility.  I remember days where we'd have family gatherings & our relatives would come up to us & point out things like: "You've been married for so long now, why don't you guys have some kids?" "Don't wait too long because you're only getting older." "Why would you prefer getting a dog over having a child?" "Do you guys not want kids?" "Oh, don't worry just take advantage of being child-less right now." In those moments, I can honestly tell you, I wanted to cry my eyes out. Some day's I was able to just brush those questions aside. I mean, I know they had good intentions. They...

One thing that I know that's for sure, is that in this season of waiting, God is molding & shaping our character into the parents that He created us to be. I see God's hands at work in my heart. I think that if I had gotten pregnant soon after my wedding, like so many others, I would not have the heart for children as I do now. For over 8 years now, I've committed my life to serving & working with kids. God gave me a fresh perspective & humbled my heart to love & embrace the children around me as if they were my very own. I was a Day Care Teacher, Nanny, Sunday School Teacher, baby sitter, & Children's Ministry Coordinator. God opened doors of opportunity for me to share the love I had stored in my heart with children around me. Before I even realized this, He was aligning everything already. I find His hands in everything that I do. He leads me into embracing children truly as a gift from God. I've gained so much wisdom and knowledge working i...

Hi Readers! Today I've decided to share with you the heart behind my blog. Beauty of Barrenness . About 4 years ago, God had placed this passion on my heart. To share my story to others. My story of infertility & barrenness. I attempted to publish a few posts, but still felt so much bitterness towards my situation. I undeniably got consumed with trying to conceive. Nothing else mattered to me. Out of my mouth came words that just masked how I really felt internally. I'd lay in bed at night questioning God. Why? Why me? Why can't I have kids? You know I LOVE kids. Why would you let this happen to me? In that season of my life, I had no one to turn to. Literally no one. Even Roger didn't even know how to comfort me. We were both silent in this what seemed like a never ending storm. We were trying to stay strong for each other. We weren't seeking God's will or comfort. We were so lost. A part of me even questioned if he would no longer love me because...

Good Morning, you may have found yourself in a season of waiting. Whether it be for a new job, new opportunity, a long awaited child, or the return of a loved one. Maybe not by choice nor by plan. But by God's plan. I know how hard that may be. To completely have full trust in Him. It's easier said than done. It seems impossible right? Trust me, there are days where infertility leaves me feeling so lost & confused. Thankfully the Holy Spirit works in us & around us daily. Boy oh boy, do I need His daily reminders.  If you find yourself in a season of complete stillness & you're having to learn to wait on the Lord, I hope some of these truths encourage you today. Prayer is important. But most times, we're so desperate for quick answers from the Lord, that our prayers become desperate demands. Often times, it even seems as if our prayers aren't being heard nor answered and this results in feeling like our faith is fading away. We have to be careful...