Cultivating a Mother's Heart

Having a mother's heart without having children.

I believe that you don't have to bear children to have a mother's heart.

After 12 years of marriage and countless years of trying,  I've discovered that the Lord has given me the opportunity to cultivate a mother's heart. How can that be though if I've never bore my own children? Stretch marks, labor pain, and sleepless nights and all.

You see, infertility has given me a wider perspective and understanding that things take time and I'm not the one that is in control of time.

As much as I desire having my own children, its the season of barrenness that I've been in that has given me perspective on such beauty. Such beauty that I've found in the desert.

Because of the lack of children in our lives, as a family, I've found a love that I could never have imagined. A love that receives and embraces every child as blessing from God. A gift that is rare to those of us who spend sleepless nights pleading …

An Open Letter to Our Friends and Family:

For the past year Roger and I have been convicted of the lifestyle that we've obtained. We've found our space just overflowing with unnecessary things. We've filtered through all of our belongings and realize that we have everything we need and more. We struggle with the best way to tell you this but we hope you'll be able to understand where we're coming from. This is solely based on our convictions and we honor and respect all of our friends and family, and the lifestyles that they have created.

We're asking for your accountability and support. It will look different all across the board, but we have decided to pursue a life with less. Meaning, to solely invest in only what we need and to learn to have a life of contentment based on having the bare necessities. We know this will change the ways of gift giving to us, but its okay. We no longer desire to be given things that aren't necessary to have. We appreciate the thought and generosity of all things gi…

Remembering the Barren this Mother's Day

Tomorrow is Mother's Day and I have to say it is one of the toughest holidays year round. There's a bittersweet emotion that overwhelms me. Part of my heart will desire to celebrate all the beautiful mothers around me including my own mom. But part of my heart dreads the celebration day itself because it just holds as a reminder of another year without children. For those who are in the same shoes as I am, its a constant reminder that another year has passed and we're no where near where we want to be. Each year the Lord puts infertile woman on my heart during this holiday. I know that I'm not the only one that knows of a woman or two that may be struggling this weekend. So here are a few things to consider this weekend even if you don't struggle with infertility. 

This year, pray about it. Ask God who it is that you can encourage and celebrate on Mother's Day. Maybe it's a friend, a coworker, or a stranger. Let the Holy Spirit move you as you press into Him…

#RNDFAdventures: Wooden Shoe Tulip Festival

We've decided that Thursdays are our date nights this year. We haven't been sticking to that plan but we're getting on it. Roger wanted to take me to the Wooden Shoe Tulip Festival since it was such a beautiful day! Come along with us & enjoy all the radiant tulips! I hope you're day is as bright as the spring sunshine! Have a blessed weekend!

Spring is Here

It's spring already. I can't believe it! I'm absolutely loving waking up to the sun rays peeping in through my sheer curtains in the morning. And how about the crisp chilly breeze that sneaks in through the cracks of the windows? It makes me want to stay wrapped up in my comforter but also uplifts me to get up and out of bed to make the best out of my day. The weather sure can inspire you right? Spring absolutely sounds dreamy but lets face the reality, along with spring comes a bestfriend that we'd like to never visit; allergies. 

About 6 years ago, I developed allergies to pollen, and since then, I've dreaded spring. It makes me feel miserable. My eyes swell up and my nose gets completely congested and constantly dripping. I remember days where I wish that I could just be locked up in a box so that no pollen can affect me and I'll be in peace. But about 2 years ago, I was determined to kick my allergies to the curb. It was about time that I found my joy in Go…

What is Our Mission?

Recently, Roger and I flew to MSP to visit my family. As I was sitting at the airport watching people pass by hustling through the airport, a question popped up. “What is our mission?” So often we go on through life rushing, rushing, rushing. There’s always more things to do and our to-do lists are never ending. Do all of our errands and activities center us with our mission? Or most importantly, is there any purpose to the things that we are doing? I believe that we all have a purpose & a mission. But are our lifestyles truly aligning with our purpose? Are we living up to the full potential that God created us to live?
These are things that we often forget to reflect on in our lives. We so often get so caught up in the busyness of family, friends, work, church, & etc. That we let time slip away without ever really examining our soul purpose. And then we face depression & emotional breakdowns because we will have lost ourselves along the way. Not knowing who we are and w…

10 Ways to Feel Better When You're Stuck in a Rut

Hello everyone!

I apologize for the hiatus. I definitely didn't intend to take such a long break. But it was definitely needed. Within a month, I found myself just stuck in a constant rut! Speaking of it, I'd say I'm just slowly coming out of it. The beginning of March I was in Minnesota for a week celebrating my baby brother's first birthday. I was definitely facing jet lag once I got back. It seriously took me a whole week and a half to get back on my feet again and settle back into a routine of some sort. And then I've been part of a wedding planning team, and the wedding we've been planning for just crept up on me this past weekend therefore here I am, stuck in a rut again. 
I feel exhausted, lazy, uninspired, tired, & completely unmotivated. All I want to do is lock myself up in a room and hibernate forever or at least until I return to my normal self again. (Whatever that means.) So I decided that I'd share a few things that can help you get out of …