Beauty of Barrenness

For the past year Roger and I have been convicted of the lifestyle that we've obtained. We've found our space just overflowing with unnecessary things. We've filtered through all of our belongings and realize that we have everything we need and more. We struggle with the best way to tell you this but we hope you'll be able to understand where we're coming from. This is solely based on our convictions and we honor and respect all of our friends and family, and the lifestyles that they have created. We're asking for your accountability and support. It will look different all across the board, but we have decided to pursue a life with less. Meaning, to solely invest in only what we need and to learn to have a life of contentment based on having the bare necessities. We know this will change the ways of gift giving to us, but its okay. We no longer desire to be given things that aren't necessary to have. We appreciate the thought and generosity of all things g

Tomorrow is Mother's Day and I have to say it is one of the toughest holidays year round. There's a bittersweet emotion that overwhelms me. Part of my heart will desire to celebrate all the beautiful mothers around me including my own mom. But part of my heart dreads the celebration day itself because it just holds as a reminder of another year without children. For those who are in the same shoes as I am, its a constant reminder that another year has passed and we're no where near where we want to be. Each year the Lord puts infertile woman on my heart during this holiday. I know that I'm not the only one that knows of a woman or two that may be struggling this weekend. So here are a few things to consider this weekend even if you don't struggle with infertility.  This year, pray about it . Ask God who it is that you can encourage and celebrate on Mother's Day. Maybe it's a friend, a coworker, or a stranger. Let the Holy Spirit move you as you press in

We've decided that Thursdays are our date nights this year. We haven't been sticking to that plan but we're getting on it. Roger wanted to take me to the Wooden Shoe Tulip Festival since it was such a beautiful day! Come along with us & enjoy all the radiant tulips! I hope you're day is as bright as the spring sunshine! Have a blessed weekend!

It's spring already. I can't believe it! I'm absolutely loving waking up to the sun rays peeping in through my sheer curtains in the morning. And how about the crisp chilly breeze that sneaks in through the cracks of the windows? It makes me want to stay wrapped up in my comforter but also uplifts me to get up and out of bed to make the best out of my day. The weather sure can inspire you right? Spring absolutely sounds dreamy but lets face the reality, along with spring comes a bestfriend that we'd like to never visit; allergies.  About 6 years ago, I developed allergies to pollen, and since then, I've dreaded spring. It makes me feel miserable. My eyes swell up and my nose gets completely congested and constantly dripping. I remember days where I wish that I could just be locked up in a box so that no pollen can affect me and I'll be in peace. But about 2 years ago, I was determined to kick my allergies to the curb. It was about time that I found my joy in G

Recently, Roger and I flew to MSP to visit my family. As I was sitting at the airport watching people pass by hustling through the airport, a question popped up. “What is our mission?” So often we go on through life rushing, rushing, rushing. There’s always more things to do and our to-do lists are never ending. Do all of our errands and activities center us with our mission? Or most importantly, is there any purpose to the things that we are doing? I believe that we all have a purpose & a mission. But are our lifestyles truly aligning with our purpose? Are we living up to the full potential that God created us to live? These are things that we often forget to reflect on in our lives. We so often get so caught up in the busyness of family, friends, work, church, & etc. That we let time slip away without ever really examining our soul purpose. And then we face depression & emotional breakdowns because we will have lost ourselves along the way. Not knowing who we are

Hello everyone! I apologize for the hiatus. I definitely didn't intend to take such a long break. But it was definitely needed. Within a month, I found myself just stuck in a constant rut! Speaking of it, I'd say I'm just slowly coming out of it. The beginning of March I was in Minnesota for a week celebrating my baby brother's first birthday. I was definitely facing jet lag once I got back. It seriously took me a whole week and a half to get back on my feet again and settle back into a routine of some sort. And then I've been part of a wedding planning team, and the wedding we've been planning for just crept up on me this past weekend therefore here I am, stuck in a rut again.  I feel exhausted, lazy, uninspired, tired, & completely unmotivated. All I want to do is lock myself up in a room and hibernate forever or at least until I return to my normal self again. (Whatever that means.) So I decided that I'd share a few things that can help you ge

2 weeks ago we were asked to reserve Saturday the 27th of February for a special day. We weren't sure what was in store for us but were excited nonetheless! We love adventures! We kept trying to put all the puzzle pieces together to find out what the plans were but we were refrained from doing so. Therefore, we patiently waited for the day to arrive & then we got ready & set off for our destination! We were instructed to find our way to a beautiful place nearby called Gales Creek. We drove off with nothing but warm clothes and a few camping chairs, anxious to see what we would be arriving to. Scroll down to see pictures from our adventure! I even documented bits and pieces from this beautiful day. Watch it in the video below. Huge thanks to a couple that we look up to & are so blessed to have in our lives. They truly model a Godly marriage & encourage us to constantly keep Christ at the center of ours as well. They challenge us & b

Give each item below a grade from 0-10, (0—It doesn’t influence my self-worth all; 10—It significantly influences my self-worth). ____My relationship with my spouse  ____My desire to be a parent  ____The fact that I am loved unconditionally by God  ____My relationships with friends/family  ____My job, ministry, or another activity  ____My material status (where we live, what we own) ____Other: ____________ Where is your self worth coming from? In other words, what defines you?  Does your current status define you? Or does a dream or desire define you?  Is it a relationship with someone? Or a position you are holding?  Maybe even your income, or your desire to be wealthy? For years, I let PCOS define me. I let the world define me. I would look onto other women whom so easily conceived and I'd beat myself up about not being able to measure up to them. I grew up wishing & hoping that once I got married to the man of my dreams, we would start up a family &am

If you are a follower of Jesus, then you will have peace  in the face of any circumstance because you have the peace that dwells within you.That is the peace of God. Jesus is the Prince of Peace. But just because you have Jesus and the peace that comes from Him, it has nothing to do with the peace across the world because there is a battle going on between good and evil. Jesus is truth and there will be people who are against Him. So there will always be division in this world because there is darkness here. There is a spiritual battle going on that we know nothing about.  We cannot do anything. God does the work. We need to know the truth & trust that He will do His work. We need to stand on, live out & share the Truth . Which is the Word of God. The Bible.   34  ‘Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth.  I did not come to bring peace, but a sword.   35  For I have come to turn ‘“a man against his father, a daughter against her mother,

Courtesy of Pinterest Today marks our wedding anniversary of 11 years! I don't know why, but I feel as if every year passes on by faster & faster.  Wow, 11 years.  No one says how marriage is going to be after year 10. Personally, I have to say that year 10 was the year of transformation. And now we're moving into a new year together, I'm so excited to see what else the Lord will invite us to. I don't want you to read my blog & assume I have a perfect husband or marriage. Because I don't. We've had numerous arguments & fights. We've walked away from each other countless times and we've let out some of the cruelest words from our lips. But God redeemed our marriage when Roger & I stopped trying to control our marriage & one another.  At the end of 2015, Roger & I felt the Lord lead us into a 40 day fast. I cannot say, how faithful God is when you sacrifice yourself daily to find His face. In those 40 days we relied on frui

The enemy came to steal, to kill, and to destroy. And even though the enemy meant all of this for evil, God turns it into a beautiful story of redemption. He has used this season of infertility to teach me a few things that reveals His Beauty in the barrenness. 1. Spiritual Empathy . I found out that I was not the only one that was facing this storm. He's sewn the hearts of women of similar journeys with my heart as well. It's as if He gave me empathetic lenses to see the pain & hurting women who surround me in my community. And He gives me compassion for them. He inspires me to step outside of my comfort zone to bring light of these hard topics with the struggling women of this generation. I no longer isolate myself from everyone, but choose to be used by God to be an extension of His love & encouragement towards other women whom feel cast out into the shadows of the very fertile women.  2. Let HOPE Anchor You. I started off my journey getting sucked into al

Written by Roger Moua Dora’s shared her side of the story of barrenness now I would like to share mine. As the saying goes, “there’s two sides to every story,” how true that saying rings in marriages around the world. But 11 years ago when I got married to the most amazing woman, beautiful, inside and out, I would’ve never thought this would be the situation that we would be in now. Childless. It hurt to see people go through it and even more so when you’re the one going through it yourself. I pictured us with at least 4 children and for some reason I believed that we would be blessed with twins. Even when people told me I was getting my hopes up too high or that science was against me, I continued to believe in a God of impossibilities. But year after year and still no child that hope began to disappear. I began to question God’s loyalty and began to lose trust in Him secretly inside. Feeling like I was deserted in a dry and weary land. Alone, scared and hopeless. Dora m