Beauty of Barrenness

One thing that I know that's for sure, is that in this season of waiting, God is molding & shaping our character into the parents that He created us to be. I see God's hands at work in my heart. I think that if I had gotten pregnant soon after my wedding, like so many others, I would not have the heart for children as I do now. For over 8 years now, I've committed my life to serving & working with kids. God gave me a fresh perspective & humbled my heart to love & embrace the children around me as if they were my very own. I was a Day Care Teacher, Nanny, Sunday School Teacher, baby sitter, & Children's Ministry Coordinator. God opened doors of opportunity for me to share the love I had stored in my heart with children around me. Before I even realized this, He was aligning everything already. I find His hands in everything that I do. He leads me into embracing children truly as a gift from God. I've gained so much wisdom and knowledge working i...

This weekend was so eventful. Packed with so many great things. I went out with my sister for a Zumba charity fundraiser for a local children's organization. Got to see my nephews & hang out with my sisters. I had a long over due lunch date with a good friend. Dropped off starter kits at church  for the arrival of Refugees that will be arriving in our area. I had great conversations filled with laughter & tears over a delightful dinner with beautiful women. I pushed myself out of my comfort zone to be more intentional at church- catching up with fellow brothers & sisters in Christ.   There are no words to describe how full my heart is in this current moment. If only I could just make time stand still. I feel as if I'm at the best time in my life right now. Everything feels perfect. It's impossible for perfection though. I know, I know. My weekend was packed to the brim but I don't regret any of it. As I'm typing this, I'm literally struggling to s...

Roger & I have been married for 10 years now and one thing we've definitely learned is that we need friendship. 2015 was a hard year, I mean, when is life nor marriage not hard? You'll always face new challenges. I wish someone would've told us on our wedding day how important it is to stay friends in your marriage.  I honestly don't know when we lost that important factor of our marriage, but I guess once marriage happened, it was all about figuring out how to make it through life.We stopped asking questions. Stopped getting to know each other & we began to just conform to this normality of what we thought marriage was supposed to be. A Relational Retirement.  Last year, Roger & I literally felt like we came to a point where our marriage was going to end. Not because someone cheated or because we didn't get along. Most people I know would probably conclude & compromise at the fact that they "fell out of love" with each other. For us...

Good Morning, you may have found yourself in a season of waiting. Whether it be for a new job, new opportunity, a long awaited child, or the return of a loved one. Maybe not by choice nor by plan. But by God's plan. I know how hard that may be. To completely have full trust in Him. It's easier said than done. It seems impossible right? Trust me, there are days where infertility leaves me feeling so lost & confused. Thankfully the Holy Spirit works in us & around us daily. Boy oh boy, do I need His daily reminders.  If you find yourself in a season of complete stillness & you're having to learn to wait on the Lord, I hope some of these truths encourage you today. Prayer is important. But most times, we're so desperate for quick answers from the Lord, that our prayers become desperate demands. Often times, it even seems as if our prayers aren't being heard nor answered and this results in feeling like our faith is fading away. We have to be careful...

In a nutshell, I am the worlds most indecisive person ever.  Senior year of high school, I remember one occurring  question.  "What are your plans after graduation?"   Honestly, I didn't know and I most certainly did not want to just apply for a community college with no passion & then drop out at some point where I've lost my will power to drag myself into the unknown. I've seen it happen plenty of times. So I thought I'd take a year to just work & figure out who or what I wanted to be.  A year came by so quickly. Then 4 years, then 5, and now I've been out of school for over 8 years. When did I lose myself?  Its strange. For a season I was inspired to go into beauty school & become a cosmetologist. I enjoyed the thought of pampering others. After that I fell in love with children. I committed to working in a day care center, a nanny, family assistant, and a local non profit shelter for women & children over the course of 7 yea...