Journey into the wilderness, spend time in solitude, and know that God has a better plan for your life. A Divine Plan.

Saturday, January 9, 2016

In a nutshell, I am the worlds most indecisive person ever. 

Senior year of high school, I remember one occurring  question. 


"What are your plans after graduation?" 

Honestly, I didn't know and I most certainly did not want to just apply for a community college with no passion & then drop out at some point where I've lost my will power to drag myself into the unknown. I've seen it happen plenty of times. So I thought I'd take a year to just work & figure out who or what I wanted to be. 

A year came by so quickly. Then 4 years, then 5, and now I've been out of school for over 8 years. When did I lose myself? 

Its strange. For a season I was inspired to go into beauty school & become a cosmetologist. I enjoyed the thought of pampering others. After that I fell in love with children. I committed to working in a day care center, a nanny, family assistant, and a local non profit shelter for women & children over the course of 7 years. I absolutely loved it! Don't get me wrong. Through my infertility God had gave me fresh eyes to see that He was using me to love & care for children in this season.

I even considered getting continued education in Early Childhood Development. But I still felt unsure. For some reason, just in the depth of my soul I could just feel something else budding within. Through out these past 8 years, a small but constant passion was rising & I just wasn't sure where it would lead me. Was it just a hobby? An obligation? Or a dream? A vision? I found myself creating, planning, & decorating events, weddings, parties, and just about anything that inspired me to inject my creativity into it. 


It wasn't just the fact that I loved being able to share my gift of creativity but it was also being able to bless others with it. To pour my heart & soul into something so special & to see them just receive it with so much joy & to essentially be blessed. That's it. And after every event, I had a sense of purpose & passion. I found joy & contentment even in the midst of the chaos that comes with planning anything that had to do with people, food, and entertainment. 


I can honestly say that I don't regret the years in between. The short but long years of the nitty-gritty. I believe that in order for us to come to a place where we can embrace ourselves and whom God has created us to be, we have to go through trials & testings. I know my prayers haven't been completely answered yet. But why do I have to be unfaithful on my part, even if I'm still in a season of waiting? I also believe that our dreams and desires can align with God's purpose for us.

I'm so glad that I didn't give in to peer pressure & just pursued a degree of some sort. Where I stand, I see a BIG God. And I believe that my dreams are not impossible. They may seem far fetched. But my God is Greater. 

I may not have a business yet in event/wedding planning. But I know in due time, God will open doors that no man can shut. He will bring opportunities when the time is right. I'll just keep believing. 

My God promises me that He can make my dreams a reality. I trust in Him and I believe that if I'm faithful on my part, He will be faithful on His. I'm willing to just give my all & let Him do the rest. 

This doesn't mean that my dreams will just fall in my laps. But I believe that this year, He is moving me in a much more bold & courageous direction. That means doing something I don't feel too comfortable about. Jotting down and action plan. Setting doable goals for myself & letting Him take care of the undo-able. Saying yes to the best opportunities. Connecting & surrounding myself in a community that will encourage me to spread my wings & grow. 

I received encouragement from a new friend & she said something that really convicted me to dive in all or nothing.

" ....launching a small business is like launching a small boat into the ocean. It's terrifying. There's a lot of scary things out there! People who are bigger and better than you. You might sink. You might be GREAT. But if you don't get off the shore, you'll never know which. So you have to just dive in and start doing it or else you're never going to. "

So here goes nothing. I'd rather live trying than not at all. 

Are you still dreaming? Will you dare to dream BIG with me? Will you work towards those dreams & make them a reality?


Lets do this together. 


“God expects you to have enough faith and determination and enough trust in Him to keep moving, keep living, keep rejoicing. In fact, He expects you not simply to face the future; He expects you to embrace and shape the future--to love it and rejoice in it and delight in your opportunities. God is anxiously waiting for the chance to answer your prayers and fulfill your dreams, just as He always has. But He can't if you don't pray, and He can't if you don't dream. In short, He can't if you don't believe.” - Jeffrey R. Holland




5 comments :

  1. IM IN!!! I am also jumping in head first. I don't quite know where I'm going, but as Dory says I "just keep swimming". I can't wait to see how God blesses your dreams and brings them to fruition! If you need help with anything, feel free to shoot me an email!

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  2. Thanks Haley! I love Dory! Fun Fact, in middle school, my friends named me Dorie! (and that was before the movie came out!" It's so funny how much we have in common! Thanks for the blessings! I will definitely keep you in mind. Thanks for taking the time to read my ramblings. I appreciate it so much!

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  3. OMG, this post sounds as if you are writing my thoughts, but in your words - this post resonates with me on so many different levels...I have been/am in a similar situation as you, I too love and dream of starting my own event planning company someday and the list goes on and on! I am so happy to hear that you are slowly but surely making progress in turning your dream into a reality. I will be closely watching you climb the ladders of success, wish you all the luck to make your dreams come true!
    xx, Kusum | www.sveeteskapes.com

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    1. Thanks Kusum! I gotta atleast try right? Here's to baby steps to our dreams!

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  4. This is inspiring. I don't know if I will or even want to open a business, but I have always believed if you love it you should do it. At least that is my plan.

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